32 weeks..getting bigger and bigger

HOW BIG IS THIS BABY GOING TO BE!?? I'm only 32 weeks and I swear my belly CANNOT get any bigger..I think I just jinxed myself I'm going to get huge and have a zillion stretch marks! So we STILL don't have a name for this cute little girl inside of me and I kind of feel guilty! Like with Abby we just knew but I keep going back and forth between London and Kendall and certain days I like certain names and as for middle names..NO CLUE!!!! Everyone keeps telling me when you see her you will know..uh how can that be?? I am going to think she's cute and love her but really am I going to know the second I meet her for the 1st time what her name is? I have doubts but what do ya do?!! So I had to leave church an hour early yesterday I was SO uncomfortable!! I felt so guilty but I honestly felt like I saw crushing things when I sat down and I was SO HOT! Lame especially on Easter but Cory understood and brought Abby home after it was over..sweet hubby! LOVE HIM! Oh and I have now hit my DEPRESSION/EMOTIONAL/CRAZY stage of pregnancy where I cry and laugh at the same time! Saturday was the WORST I couldn't stop bawling over everything! I did have some things going on worth crying over but it went on the WHOLE day..my poor husband is so patient but I think he had had it with me! I really will need some meds if I feel like this after I'm prego!!! Don't worry I woke up this morning with the WORST cough! Like it is so DEEP and it makes me throw up..NOT FUN! I can't figure out why because I was just sick last week!? This is when the flu shot should start working right?? I keep have these urges to complain on this post but I'm not going to I know things are hard for everyone right now and they could be a lot worse for us..I'm so thankful that I have a hard working husband and that we have our blind business to suplament our income. Everyone that I have been prego with are having their babies and it honestly makes me SO NERVOUS! Having a newborn is SO hard and I am terrified of what Abby is going to do..she is going to hate me and the baby and I know she's going to act out to get attention I just hope I'm WRONG!!! I will just have to make it a point to get out a lot this summer and keep the toddler busy and being in the sunshine should help me as well. Ok so I think that's about it but my doc did say she would enduce me the 1st week of JUNE!! So really it's like I'm 33 weeks along:)