I have to post this before my appointment today..in 2 hours!!!! I am sooo nervous to find out what I'm having..I don't know WHY!?? I just honestly don't know what this baby is..I've had thoughts that it's a girl but that's all I know so I think that's why I think it's a girl. I'm kinda nervous for a boy..I don't know what to do with a boy?!! Then I'm TERRIFIED if it's a girl because WOW how will I handle 2 GIRLS?! DRAMAAAAAAA! I guess we'll find out..I'll be excited either way I know it will help me better bond with the baby too. Oh so this pregnancy my eyes and my face are SOO SENSITIVE! Estee Lauder makeup makes my skin go bright red and it burns so bad..obviously I am allergic to it! Too bad I don't have tons of money lying around or I would get out and buy the Trish McIvoy planner and foundation fully loaded:) Hmm..I also cannot eat cereal or oranges!! Everytime I do I throw them right up. Abby still doesn't like dolls so I hope she doesn't hate this baby. I'm excited for her to have a sibling..she NEEDS one! That girl gets busier and busier and more out of control everyday..the MELTDOWNS are sooo bad right now. Anyways I need to clean up and get ready. WISH ME LUCK?!

BORED BEING PREGO!???

Okay..this sounds weird but I am BORED with being PREGO!!! Last time it was like every week I would read and find out how big the baby was and I was so excited the bigger I got and every week I felt like I was closer to having the babe...this time I'm just kind of done with the whole prego thing.. been there done that. Oh that is so horrible to say but REALLY do we really have to get so fat and do they really have to grow for 9..10 whole months!?? Ugh..I need that time to get ready but I don't know I just have mixed feelings this time. I need to stay positive...I am getting really good at throwing up and I still don't know what triggers it I just have the most SENSITIVE reflexes!!!!! I was brushing my teeth a few days ago and out of NO WHERE I started throwing up right in the sink..I don't know WHY?! It was great..I just want to know what I am having!!!! I really will be so excited either way but I am just SO ready to know!!!! I'm also getting more energy but I'm loosing my mind!!! I CANT find my dang camera and I seriously haven't taken it anywhere it has to be somewhere in my house! I have looked and looked and looked and yeah no where!! We'll find it...anyways what else can I complain about?!! Oh Abby woke up screaming my name after she'd only taken an hour nap and I go in to find her pants slipped off and her diaper was off and she had PEED all over!! I thought I had a onsie on her but yeah ...somebody needs to make belts for kids!! This girl has the skinniest legs like her dad and her pants come right off. It was so fun cleaning it up I gagged about 5 times and luckily I didn't throw up. Oh on a positive note we watched the Grinch today and she liked it!! Well like 20 minutes and then she was busy doing something else but it's times like that I just realize I love my little partner in crime soooo MUCH! I really can't think of a better job than being a mommy! It is WAAAY harder than working but I love it. ENOUGH..these posts are getting worse every time..it's usually me just going on and on..

NEGATIVE NED..

So I realized yesterday I am still in DENIAL that I am prego..I totally feel fat and huge already but it hasn't hit me that I will soon have 2 KIDS!!!! I see people with 2 kids that are close in age and it's never a pleasant experience..one of them is always screaming and the mom looks worn out!! I already am going through the depression stage which for me last time didn't hit until 6 months..I feel ugly and I don't want to even go out in public because I feel like no matter how much makeup I wear my clothes still look horrible and I feel like I stick out like a sore thumb. I always feel like my house isn't clean enough and I get so much more frustrated when Abby pulls everything out and gets into things..I HATE this feeling!! Poor Cory doesn't know what to do when I have my meltdowns:( he is still soooo patient and I love him so much for being so loving and supportive even when I have my crazy days. I just hope these months go by FAST and at the same time I don't feel ready AT ALL for this babe. I don't know WHERE we are going to put our desk and it's not small I have filing cabinets and the fax machine, printer, books and files and storage drawers and yeah it's all stuff we need for our business!!! UGH..what do ya do?? We'll figure it out but I want to have the baby's room ready before he/she comes..I don't like keeping them in our room for too long I can NEVER sleep. Oh and this DANG window in here has an arch and the sun comes right in in the morning so I need to eventually put shutters on the front windows..ADD IT TO THE LIST!! This is a negative post (SORRY) 3 positive things...
1. I'm not as nauseated as often!
2. I have WAAAAY more energy..
3. Abby is getting sooo independant

so I'm WAAAAY less nauseated now that I'm past 12 weeks..KNOCK ON WOOD!!!!!!! But now I'm starting to get my appetite back (besides throwing up my cereal this morning) I am going to stock up on fruits and snacks and healthy stuff so I don't go for ice cream or anything fried like I did last pregnancy...Abby is starting to really grow out of being a baby she is so independent and I am gaining more confidence about her liking the new baby..although she REALLY doesn't seem to care for other kids or babies! She almost gets annoyed with them and wants to do her own thing. HAHA..I know it's normal but she is such an ONLY CHILD! Anyways..I am thankful to be pregnant and I am glad everything so far has been okay even though we have a LOOOONG way to go.

12 WEEKS...

Soo..I've broken out SOOO BAD! UGH..I don't remember the acne with Abby but I have some differin and some other gel from the dermatologist and it's starting to clear up but AHHH..YUCK! Oh and I feel sooo bloated and fat this pregnancy..I'm sure I felt this way last time but jeez I just feel fat around the middle and the honestly is THE WORST place to feel fat..oh well I just wish I was far enough along that people KNEW I was prego not just gaining weight:( ...I am trying to excersize on our elliptical at least 3-4 times a week I've really noticed my nausea is better and I'm much less tired at the end of the day when I excersize..and it's a good excuse to download some good itunes :) I haven't really craved anything yet and I really have no appetite I have to eat small small portions throughout the day..lovely lovely pregnancy!!

11 weeks and counting..

So far I really can't complain about this pregnancy..I feel like it's better than when I was prego with Abby but I still get SOOO nauseated and throw up and I cannot eat big meals or even a full meal without getting sick. It's much better that the work I do is on my time and isn't so stressful. Last time I was pregnant I was working and was stressed all the time so I count my blessings everyday I'm not doing the 8-5 thing. Abby is getting SOOOO BUSY! I took her to the doctor with me today and WHAT WAS I THINKING!!? She was all over the place and it was a disaster to say the least we were both worn out by the time we got home so yeah the whole 2 years apart thing is going to be tough!! I do love the age Abby is at right now she is my little partner in crime and she is such a funny girl..she will bring me a blanket and make me wrap her up like a little burrito and rock her while singing "rock a bye baby" I don't know how she is going to handle the little one I am actually TERRIFIED of this..she has always had all the attention from everybody and I don't know how she is going to handle the baby!?? I fear she will be mean and be extra naughty..we'll have to see what happens but I would love to find a good book about dealing with kids so close in age..if anyone has suggestions let me know!